Carry On

//I didn't understand the things you're going through

I never understood, I really never knew//

I'm sitting here. Alone. Well I have my thoughts to keep me company but they aren't much help. In fact they are a damn nuisance. They only want to focus on...on...come on Darren can't even THINK his name let alone say it. Here goes. Daniel. Ow...gods that hurts. It hurts so much. Why does it hurt. Oh yeah, because you're in love with him you bloody dope. My Danny. How could I not have known? How could I have been so selfish? Or was I selfish? I just don't know. We were best friends but you were still closed off from me. Always playing the quiet stoic one, hiding in the background while I took the spotlight. I never knew exactly what you were feeling, never understood. Maybe I should have paid more attention...your music said it all.

//Carry on

Carry on

The sun will always shine//

It's hard. So hard to go on without you. When we parted ways...I can't even use the word breakup...It was like all the light went out of my life, leaving me cold and grey. Sure it was my decision...right? No...yes...maybe...I don't know. All I know is that you aren't here at my side anymore. But the show must go on right? And look, the sun is out. So warm and inviting. It reminds me of your eyes.

//Carry on

Carry on

We'll have a glass of wine

Or cigarette//

Your eyes...I never told you how much I loved your eyes. Never even told you how much I loved YOU. We'll meet again. I know we will. Hell I should have Leonie set it up right now. A nice quiet dinner together. We'll sit up here on the terrace, sipping wine, smoking and talking about the old days. Well...you'll smoke. I'll just watch.

//Take destiny by the hand

And lead it far away

Take it to another land

We will all decay//

I can't stand being away from you anymore. I know you won't come to me so I am going to go to you. I seized destiny and called you. Myself, not Leonie. At the first sound of your voice I nearly melted. I don't know how I lived all this time without hearing it. We talk for what seems like forever. But before I can ask you to come see me...I hear a voice. A woman's voice, asking you if you are ready to go out. You laugh and tell me goodbye, we hang up. I stare at the phone in my hand, and I feel my heart shatter, destiny dying and decaying before my very eyes.

//Carry on

Carry on

The sun will always shine

Carry on

Carry on

We'll have a glass of wine

Or cigarette//

The sun is still out, still shining warmly on everything. It does feel good. In my hand is a glass of wine half drunk. Too bad you aren't there with your cigarette. Oh well, gotta carry on. But oh god it is going to be so hard to do without you.