If We Kissed by Rose Angel

(Disclaimed: 'What Would Happen', Meredith Brooks)

//Electricity, eye to eye
Hey don't I know you
I can't speak//

I stare at him from across the room.  He did this to torture me.  Invited me to his demented little party.  He's casually touching some guy in front of him, and his lips.  He's wearing lip balm and I imagine his lips under my fingers.  I drain my drink and sigh.  Time for hell to come.

"Darren?" I smile as I greet him, watching as his blond head turns towards me.

"Daniel!" He grabs me in a hug and I feel all breath leave me.  "How are you?  I've missed you!  Where's Kat?  Do you like the album?"

//Stripped my senses
On the spot
I've never been defenseless
I can't even make sense of this
You speak and I don't hear a word//

I don't hear a word he says.  I just stare at his lips as they move.  It doesn't seem fair that he's here, looking so wonderfully beautiful and happy, and I'm so fucking unhappy.  I pull away from him and grin.  "I've missed you."

"It's been a long time," he turns to the person he was talking to.  "Excuse me."

He takes my arm and leads me outside.  "Darren, I really have missed you."

"I know, Jonesy," he smiles.  "You look wonderful."

"No, I don't," I whisper.  "I look like shit.  I look like shit whenever I'm without you."

He turns away and looks up at the sunset. "Did you ever wonder what would have happened had we, you know, gotten together?"

//What would happen if we kissed
Would your tongue slip past my lips
Would you run away, would you stay
Or would I melt into you
Mouth to mouth, lust to lust
Spontaneously combust//

"Every second of every day," I whisper.  "Jesus, Darren, what happened between us?"

"What do you think?" he laughs lightly.  "You got tired of all of it, Daniel.  You left."

"Don't you dare blame this on me!" I raise my voice slightly.

"Oh come on, Daniel," he smiles as he touches my hand.  "I never wanted Savage Garden to end.  You know that."

//The room is spinning out of control
Act like you didn't notice
Brushed my hand//

"Darren, I left Savage Garden because I was worried you didn't love me," I sigh.  "As I loved you."

He stares at me and I know what he's about to do.  He's going going to scream and call me a faggot.  Say I'm ruining society with my gross ideas.  I've ruined it.  I've ruined any chance of us being friends.

//Forbidden fruit
Ring on my finger
You're such a moral, moral man
You throw it away, no question
Will I pretend I'm innocent//

"You were worried I didn't love you?" he gasps.  "Oh, Danny!  I loved you from the first moment we met!  But-"

"But what?" I sigh.

"We can't do this."

"Why?"

He turns away and my heart breaks.  "Because, Daniel, we can't.  Simple as that."

"Did you ever wonder what would have happened if we had actually kissed?" I whisper.

//What would happen if we kissed
Would your tongue slip past my lips
Would you run away, would you stay
Or would I melt into you
Mouth to mouth, lust to lust
Spontaneously combust//

He turns to look at me.  "Yes," he whispers.  "I've always wanted to kiss you. You are so beautiful."

I watch him, and I know we can't kiss.  I know.  I can tell that it will ruin us.  Oh, but I do want to kiss him.  I love him.  I know that too.

//I struggle with myself again
Quickly the walls are crumbling
Don't know if I can turn away//

He steps up to me and puts his lips against mine, gently at first, waiting to see if there will be a response from me. I lean forward and start to kiss him, letting every emotion I've ever felt for him go.  We kiss until our bodies demand more air and then pull away.  "We can't do this," I whisper.

"No," he whispers and then kisses me again, "we can."

//What would happen if we kissed
Would your tongue slip past my lips
Would you run away, would you stay
Or would I melt into you
Mouth to mouth, lust to lust
Spontaneously combust//