Waking from my short slumber, I slowly open my eyes.
A stranger sits beside me, I have not uttered a word to him, nor has he to me.
No one knows me- they don't recognize me-
Guess I've changed so much-
No one would.
I gaze out- and a small smile plays upon my lips.
Snow stretched for miles- reaching up towards the stars.
The sun strains to shine behind thick wisps-
It looks so unworldly- like I have journeyed to another planet.
I reach out to touch the snow- but I only grasp air-
I sigh.
Pillows stacked unevenly upon each other-
I think I just saw an angel riding across them.
I turn my eyes away from the scene before me-
I am thinking of him.
Wondering what he's doing right now.
If he remembered-
If he would meet me there-
Maybe he is angry with me-
I don't know what he thinks anymore.
I don't know him-
He doesn't know me either-
And it saddens me-
For we used to be so close- he was the brother I had always wanted.
Almost my lover- but not quite.
Perhaps I scared him off-
Perhaps he scared me away-
My emotions are so torn- because of him.
I no longer know what to think.
I just am-

The snow is coming closer now- perhaps I can touch it-
It's not cold-
I can't feel it- just air again.
Another sigh- I close my eyes-
Imagining myself- and him-
Skating along the white pillows reaching for those stars-
Under the waning sun- along with the angels.
He is my angel-
He saved me from myself long ago-
I never forgot that either-
I look down at my lap- and remember- seeing those permanent reminders.
A muffled voice- somewhere in the distance-
Maybe right next to me-
The snow is much closer now- a little darker- the sun is fading from view-
Soon I am a part of the snow- my world starts to tremble and shake-
My eyes still closed- I am only thinking of him- seeing his beautiful face-
Frowning at me- worried for me-
As well he should be-
Everyone is worried about me now.
Except for myself-
I really don't care-
Give me a reason to- and maybe I'll reflect on my life-
Fix whatever's wrong with me-
But not right now-
My soul could not handle it.
A non-too gentle bump-
That muffled voice again-
The snow is gone- I see dried-out yellow grass-
Drizzling rain hazes my view-
Or is that tears-
I cannot tell.
The stranger beside me stands-
As well as all the other passengers.
One last gaze out- and I too- rise.
Down the dimly lit aisles- carrying my only bag-
Too somber and depressed to look anyone in the eyes.
Out through the door-
Back into the world-

I do not see him-
I was not expecting to- but still-
A shred of disappointment and pain hurts my heart-
"Darren?"
I whirl around at the sound of my name.
There he stands-
The only person I ever really cared about.
Slim rain drops slowly trickling down the black umbrella he is holding.
I am dreaming.
I am sure of it.
I cannot believe he has come.
I cannot believe he remembered-
But all the doubt- everything fades away as I feel a strong pair of arms around my too slim waist-
Warm lips meet mine-
And I melt- nearly collapsing into his embrace.
When the bliss has faded- I look up-
His bright eyes smiling at me-
I still haven't spoken-
I open my mouth to- but nothing comes out-
Just a little sigh- nothing more.
His eyes narrow a bit- we will be talking later-
About things- about what's wrong-
I know.
But not now-
Right now- I just want to go home- with him.
It would be all right someday-
Maybe not now-
But someday- it would be-
I don't want to think about tomorrow- the day after that- or any time in the future-
I just want to concentrate on now-
Something I haven't been doing much of lately.
He holds me tightly- protectively- whispering comforting words my tormented mind cannot understand.
I feel a gentle caress on my cheek- he is wiping a stray tear that somehow found it's way down from my eyes.
"Come on love." He whispers into my ear- looping an arm around my shoulder- pulling me close-
He leads me away from the gate- into the crowded airport.

But in my world- it is just me and Daniel-
Riding along the snowy clouds-
The wind at our backs-
The sun in our face-
The stars shining down to guide us.
And at least for one moment in my life-

I am at peace.