"Aah, no... I think I had enough... But, hey, who cares, yes, gimme some..."

"Cheers, mate..."

Daniel opened grinning another bottle. He was enjoying the evening very much. It had been quite a long time since he and Darren had had the opportunity to spend a simple, relaxed evening, just sitting on the sofa, watching TV, drinking and talking about the old times.

Darren had just gotten rid of his very possessive girlfriend who had kept him home every night if he wasn't away for touring or recording, and even then she tried to be around 24/7 or kept calling him every few hours, asking the silliest questions like what she should order in the restaurant or which shampoo to buy. It had been a very stressful and painful split, with hour-long arguments, screaming and fighting.

Daniel had been free and single for a month, too. The relationship with his former personal trainer Andy had simply cooled down and come to an end. Opposites attract, yes, but Andy's preference for clubbing, watching horror movies in the late night showing and booking free-climbing tours in the Rocky Mountains for vacation simply contradicted Daniel's lifestyle a bit too much.

He poured some wine into both their glasses.

"What do you think about going out tomorrow? We'll look for a new girl for you..."

Darren chuckled. "Yeah, and a new guy for you..."

They both laughed. Daniel raised the glass. "Too bad we can't look in the same clubs anymore, hehe..."

"Well, your fault, why did you have to change your... well... flavour of ice cream?"

Daniel sipped on his wine. "Okay, what kind of girl do you want. Maybe by chance I'll see a nice one for you. Any preferred hair color?"

"Hmmm... No."

"Eyes?"

"Hmmm... No."

"Big...?"

He mad a definite move with his hands in front of his chest.

Darren burst laughing. "Daniel! Naaa. Not that important." He leant back on the sofa.

"And for you? Black? Blond?"

Daniel grinned. "I want a red-haired guy."

"REALLY??"

"Hehe. No, just kidding."

"Eyes?"

"Mmmm... Blue or grey."

"Really?"

"Yep. Would be nice."

Darren giggled.

"Big...?"

He patted his crotch.

Now it was Daniel's turn to nearly spit the wine over the sofa.

"Haaa!"

"Come ooon..."

"Hehehe..."

Darren blushed slightly.

"Hey, is it important or not. I mean..."

Daniel smiled. He turned a bit on the sofa so that he was facing Darren.

"Okay, you really want to know... Hmmm... Well..."

"Ah, forget it, sorry, this was silly..." Darren's face turned a deeper shade of red.

"No, it is not." Daniel blushed slightly, too. "Well... It is not this important.. I mean... Okay, of course I don't want a too small..."

They both laughed silently.

Darren drew small patterns on the sofa with his forefinger.

"But... I mean... If he is very.. big... doesn't it... I mean, some... things... Doesn't it... hurt...?"

Daniel glanced up shortly, looked down again, a bit embarrassed.

"Hm... I... Well, I haven't had so many boyfriends and they all were... Em... I would say... average-sized..."

He smiled. "But yes... I think if he was really big you would have to take it really slow..."

He noticed Darren shifting slightly on the sofa.

"God, I'm sorry, you surely did not want to hear it THIS precisely..."

"No... I mean, eh, yes.. Em, I mean no, it's okay..."

He swallowed hard.

"Is it really... I mean.. You've had girlfriends AND boyfriends... Is it good.. or... which is better..."

Daniel was quiet for a while. Then he looked up.

"It's better with a man."

Darren twisted the glass slowly in his hands.

"And why?"

"More...satisfying."

"More satisfying?" Darren looked at his glass, laughed softly. "I am so sorry. Must be the wine. Why am I asking you this stuff... We never talked much about... sex.. before..."

Daniel tilted his head to one side, smiled.

"But it's okay... Just a natural, interesting subject..."

"But isn't it a bit weird when... for example... Umm..."

"Yes?"

Darren stared into his glass. "When a man... sucks off another man... Doesn't it feel... strange..."

"Have you ever had a woman going down on you?"

"Danny..."

"Come on..."

"Yeah... Sure..."

"How did it feel?"

Darren was sure that his face was deep red now. "Well... Good..."

"And for her?"

"What?"

Daniel bent slightly forward.

"Did she like it, too?"

"I... don't know... Hope so... I mean- I didn't force her to do it..."

Daniel smiled. "See... You'll never know... But with a man... you know what he likes. He knows what you like. You know, you feel, you react."

"Oh... Really...?"

Daniel made a cute move with his head, as if he wanted to look into Darren's lowered eyes.

"Hm?"

Darren smiled without looking up. "What?"

"Are we a bit... curious... tonight?"

Darren laughed nervously, made an unconscious move with his hand and nearly spilled the wine.

Daniel took the glass from his hand, put it on the table, placing his own there, too.

With his forefinger he slightly stroked Darren's thigh.

"Hey.."

Darren still didn't look up. So they sat for a while silently until Daniel bent slightly forward and touched Darren's head with his forehead.

"Hey... Daz..."

"Hmm?"

"Curious...?"

Silence.

Darren looked at Daniel's finger, still carefully caressing a very small area on his thigh, near his knee.

"Bit..."

"Hmm?"

Darren cleared his throat.

"A bit..." He whispered.

Without saying a word Daniel slowly raised his free hand, put it between Darren's shoulder blades. Pulled him forward until Darren's face rested against his shoulder. Softly he stroked his back, the other hand still on his thigh.

Then he turned his face a bit, placed a kiss on Darren's hair.

"Maybe I can help you with this... " He whispered.

His hand moved higher, caressed Darren's neck.

Darren held his breath when Daniel's lips brushed his ear, his breath tickling the skin. As if he was searching for a certain spot, Daniel let his lips trail over the skin until he kissed the sensitive spot right below Darren's ear.

He felt Darren shiver, pulled him a bit closer.

"You okay....?"

His fingers traced the seam at the inner side of Darren's thigh a bit higher, then down again.

Darren nodded slowly at his shoulder.

Daniel's lips moved along Darren's jawline, up his chin until he reached the corner of his mouth. A quick, soft kiss. Darren turned his head a bit and responded with a shy, small kiss.

Daniel pulled him into his arms.

"Okay..." He whispered. "We've gone very far now... We're holding each other very close and a few seconds ago we kissed. That's way more than many other men would do or have done."

His hand stroked Darren's thigh again.

"If you say now: 'This is enough experimenting. My curiosity is satisfied. I don't want to go further.' Then it is totally okay for me. I would never push you. I would never ask for more."

He was silent for a while, simply listening to Darren's breathing.

"It's all up to you. If you want to stop, we'll stop. If you want to go a step further... I will care for you. I would never do anything you don't want to do. I would never hurt you, I promise it, Darren."

Darren swallowed hard.

"I know... I believe you..." He whispered. "Trust you..."

Patiently Daniel held him, stroked his silky hair. And then he felt Darren slightly open his legs. Slowly he moved his hand up until he touched his groin. Heard Darren breathe in deeply, spreading his legs more.

Daniel placed his flat hand on Darren's groin, beginning to caress him lightly.

A soft moan.

Daniel increased the pressure a bit, causing a deeper moan.

"Maybe we should make ourselves a bit more comfortable..." He whispered." How about continuing this in the bedroom?"

He felt Darren tense in his arms. Only a bit, only for a second.

He understood.

"...but when I think it over, the sofa is very comfortable, too.."

"I... am sorry... I..."

"I know, Dazza..."

Bedroom meant bed. Meant surely taking the clothes off. And maybe it meant going all the way.

"I know..."

"Danny... If we... just lie here for a while...?"

"Shhh..."

Softly Daniel pushed him backwards until they were lying on the huge sofa.

For the first time they looked into each other's eyes openly now. With the back of his hand Daniel caressed Darren's cheek.

"Relax..." He whispered. "I won't bite..."

Darren smiled. "You won't?"

"Only if you want me to..."

They chuckled.

Darren took a deep breath.

"By the way..."

"Hmmm...?"

"You said, we just kissed..."

"Yeah..."

"Usually I wouldnt call that a kiss..."

"Oh no...?"

"Usually I kiss a lot better..."

"You do...?"

"I do..."

"Wanna show me...?"

They both were smiling when their lips met. Starting with soft, playful kisses on lips and faces until Darren let his fingertips trail over the back of Daniel's neck and opened his lips.

Silent minutes passed until Daniel bent his head back a little.

"Wow..." He whispered.

Darren licked his lips as if he wanted to taste the last traces of Daniel again.

"So this is what it feels like to kiss a man..."

"...And...?"

As an answer Darren pulled down his head again.


~Chapter Two~

A few minutes and kisses later.

"Can I take this as a 'Yes, it feels nice'..?"

"You can take this as a 'Yes, it feels fantastic'..."

Slowly Darren opened his legs so Daniel could settle between them more comfortably. And closer. He sighed when he felt their hard groins meet. Why did it feel so good to have Daniel lying here. It felt so... right.

Daniel caressed Darren's face again. Bent forward, kissed his nose.

"Do you know what I want to do now?"

Darren breathed in deeply. He could have played the innocent one now. Pretending not to know.

But he knew it. He was expecting it now. Not with fear. But with anticipation.

"Something that we... discussed... earlier?"

Daniel nodded calmly.

"If you want me to."

Darren closed his eyes.

"Daniel, you don't have to do this... Okay, yes, I am curious... But this does not mean you should feel indebted to... to..."

A soft kiss.

"To go down on you...? To suck you...?"

Darren opened his eyes again.

"Yes..."

"But I want to, Darren." Another kiss. "I really want to."

Daniel felt Darren getting harder. He moved his hand down, massaged him softly through the fabric. "And I want to do it now. Because I think you are ready for it."

A long, tender kiss.

"Are you, Darren? Are you ready? Do you want it?"

Darren let out a shuddering moan. He tried to think of something that he wanted more than this. He tried hard. But there was nothing. Nothing more than the wish to know how it would feel to have Daniel's soft lips on his cock.

He nodded. "Yes... Please..." He laughed softly. "Please... Please me..."

Blushing slightly he looked down.

"Shall I... take my pants off...?"

Daniel smiled. "As you wish. Or open them only a bit. Want me to do it...?"

"No... I mean, yes, I..." Darren paused. And if as if he suddenly made his mind up, he opened his jeans and pulled them down, together with his boxers. He closed his eyes when Daniel took off his shoes, socks and freed him completely from his pants. Still wearing his shirt, his lower body now exposed and naked, he felt vulnerable. And so excited.

Daniel moved up again, kissed his lips. His pants rubbed Darren's erection.

"You look fantastic..." He whispered. "It will be a pleasure... Now just relax. Relax, Darren."

Darren let his fingers run through Daniel's hair. "What do you mean... I look fantastic..."

Daniel smiled. "Your cock. It is beautiful. So beautiful."

A surprised glance. "Really? No one... Said something like this... before... I mean..."

With half- closed eyes Daniel kissed him again. "It is true, Dazza..."

Darren gasped and his eyes sprang open when he felt Daniel's hand wrapping around his cock, stroking him softly.

Daniel smiled, brushed back the hair out of Darren's face. "Relax... Breathe in... and out. Deep. Again. Good. Very good."

He slowly moved down Darren's body.

"You can keep your eyes closed." He whispered. "Or you can look. As you wish. You can touch me. But you don't have to."

He moved lower.

"Simply enjoy it. But if you don't enjoy it- stop me. Don't hesitate to stop me."

He paused.

"Darren?"

"Yes..."

"Just want you to know... It won't change anything. In our friendship, I mean. And I swear, I will never ever tell anybody."

Darren smiled at him, nodded.

"I know, Daniel... But... Thank you..."

With a deep sigh he leant back, closed his eyes and parted his legs. He felt Daniel's hands on the inner side of his thighs, pushing them a bit more apart. He was so sure now that he wanted this. So absolutely sure.

"Good so...?" He whispered.

"Very good, Dazza... Very good..."

Daniel continued to move his hand slowly up and down Darren's hard shaft. Then he bent forward and let his lips brush over the tip. Licked it.

Darren breathed in sharply. His head bent back, he whispered, more to himself than to Daniel. "Yes... Oh yes..."

It was amazing. Mind-blowing. Daniel's lips. His tongue. His mouth.

Warm. And wet. And tender.

Confident.

And deep. Oh God, so deep....

With trembling hands he touched Daniel's hair. He tried to imagine the picture he would see if he would only open his eyes and look down...

He just had to see it.

He put one arm behind his head.

And dared to open his eyes.

Incredible.

So incredible. So erotic. So beautiful.

His whole body was shivering even more, now that he was able to put a picture to the amazing feelings Daniel created inside of him.

And he saw how Daniel enjoyed it. How much delight he took in pleasing Darren. How much...

He just stopped thinking when Daniel looked up. When his sparkling, smiling green eyes met Darren's. When he looked at him, with tenderness and pure joy when he saw in Darren's eyes and face the pleasure and lust he created.

Darren felt it coming. Like a wave, getting stronger, getting higher. He tried to keep his eyes open, wanted to look into Daniel's eyes when it would happen, but at the last second his body took control. He cried out loud, bent his head back, grabbed Daniel's hair, his hips bucked and he came so hard that he had to struggle to stay conscious.

He wanted to look down and then he came again, uncontrollably, and again.

Again.

He was shivering, panting, mumbling incomprehensible words when he suddenly felt Daniel's hands and lips on his face, soothing him, calming him down.

Daniel's lips were wet and Darren kissed him deeply, reassuring himself that it really had happened, that he really, really had done it.

It was not a dream.

It had happened.

He wrapped his arms around Daniel, pressed him tightly to his body.

"Thank you thank you thank you...." He whispered. "It was so wonderful, you were so wonderful, it was amazing, thank you for doing this, thank you..."

Daniel laughed softly.

"Thank YOU, Dazza..."

He buried his face in the crook of Darren's neck.

"I hoped so much it would be good for you... And it was even better for me...."

Darren laughed. "Oh no, no... Can't be... Nothing can feel better than what you made me feel..."

Daniel opened his mouth but shut it again. He smiled.

Darren smiled. "What?"

"Mmmm... Nothing."

"Hey... What did you want to say..."

"Mmm... Naa...Maybe later, Dazza..."

He kissed Darren's hand. "How about a glass of champagne to celebrate it?"

"Ooohhh, yes..."

Daniel grinned. "I'll get the bottle."

With still shaking legs Darren got up to get the glasses.


~Chapter Three~

Daniel turned around at the door, grinned. "Heyyy... Sexy..."

Darren looked down and noticed he was still naked below the waist. Chuckling he picked up his boxers, put them on again. He paused and touched his now soft cock with his fingers, and the memory let a small shiver of lust run down his spine.

He got two glasses from Daniel's cupboard and sat down on the sofa when Daniel came back in with the bottle.

Darren looked up. Had he never noticed this before?

Daniel smiled. "What?"

"What 'what'?"

"You're looking at me as if you just saw me for the first time."

"Your smile."

"What is it with my smile?"

"It is stunning."

"What?"

Darren laughed. "Don't say 'what' all the time. Can't I simply say that you have a beautiful smile?"

Daniel opened the bottle, blew Darren a playful kiss.

"Of course you can. Thank you..."

He filled the glasses, handed one to Darren.

"To you."

He let his glass touch Darren's.

"And that you hopefully never will regret what we have done."

Darren shook his head determined.

"Never ever. I know it."

He emptied his glass, put it aside, let out a deep sigh and sank down on the sofa.

Daniel laughed and joined him.

"Happy?"

"Happy."

They turned onto their sides and just looked at each other. Daniel's fingers trailed over Darren's naked thigh. "Isn't this too cold for you? Should I get you a cover from the bedroom?"

Darren breathed in deeply.

"Instead of bringing the blanket here, we could just... go there...?"

Daniel looked into his eyes. Reading in them what Darren wanted to tell him, so loud and clear as if he would have said it with his lips.

Slowly he got up.

"Come with me..."

He dimmed the light in the bedroom and watched Darren slide under the covers. He smiled. "Usually I don't go to bed with my pants on..."

Darren cuddled up in the bed, smiled shyly. "Then you should take them off..."

They lay on the bed very close, wearing only T-shirts and boxers, the cover up to their chins, facing each other again.

Daniel took Darren's hand, stroked it softly with his thumb, and Darren squeezed his fingers lightly in reply.

His eyes were large and dark.

"Will it hurt...?"

Daniel caressed his face.

"You don't need to be afraid..."

He pulled Darren into his arms. "Don't be afraid... I'll be careful..."

Darren buried his face in blonde hair, breathing in the faint scent of shampoo, cigarettes and Daniel, which would remind him forever of this moment. "I know... And I am not afraid..."

Daniel's hand moved down his spine to the small of his back. "Do you want it, Darren?"

"I want it..."

"The more you want it, the better it will be..." His hand caressed Darren's buttocks through the thin fabric.

A faint moan, full of excitement and upcoming lust was the answer. "I... want it... A lot, Danny..."

Daniel took his hand, led it to his groin. "Touch me, Darren..."

He closed his eyes when Darren's fingers began to caress him, first through his boxers, then sneaking inside, touching his naked skin. He pulled down the boxers, giving him full access, gasping faintly when Darren wrapped his hand around his growing hardness.

"Now imagine me doing it..." He whispered. "Here..." His finger trailed down between Darren's firm buttocks.

Darren whimpered slightly. Daniel's cock felt so good to touch, hard and velvety at the same time, and the nerves around his opening began to tingle when he imagined Daniel pushing his cock into it. He felt his muscles relax, tighten, relax again, as if his body was already willing to let him in...

"Oh, Danny... Danny..."

"Shhh..." Daniel freed Darren from his shirt and his boxers, taking his off as well. Both being now completely naked for the first time with one another, they held each other tight, caressing, touching, exploring.

Then Daniel pulled back reluctantly. "Wait.. I'll be back in a minute.."

"Okay..." Darren let out a deep sigh, closed his eyes. His heart was beating fast, but he felt no fear of what would come. It was the next step, so natural, and there would never be a moment more perfect for it than this night.

He heard Daniel come back, opened his eyes, admiring the sight of the perfectly built naked man in front of the bed, holding a full glass of red wine.

He smiled. "Are you trying to get me drunk, Daniel? Wine, champagne, wine again..."

Daniel shook his head. "I would never do that. It is just for you to relax..."

Darren swallowed hard when he saw what Daniel held in his other hand, what he now placed on the bed. A small box with condoms, and a little tube.

Daniel sat down on the bed, caressed his hair. "Remember, you can still say no."

Darren pressed his forehead to Daniel's shoulder.

"It's just so... damn exciting..."

Daniel put his arms around him and they remained like this for a while until Daniel kissed Darren's hair.

"Ready?"

A long look. Darren took the glass, took a large sip from the wine.

"Ready."

"Lay down on your stomach... Wait, take these..."

Daniel took the two pillows and put them on the bed so that Darren had them under his hips. Then he took the blanket, laid it next to Darren's head. Darren hugged it, put his head on it, closed his eyes. Daniel had been right. The wine made him feel comfortably dizzy without numbing his senses.

Daniel let his fingers run over Darren's back, his buttocks. A soft massage during which he caressed his thighs, his cock, touched all the parts that set Darren on fire, made his desire grow stronger and stronger.

He moaned, purred like a cat. "Mmmmm... Daniel..."

Daniel smiled. Slowly he pushed Darren's legs wide apart, settled between them, spread his buttocks and began to massage his opening slowly with the tips of his index and middle finger.

Darren breathed in sharply in a high tone, a mixture of surprise and delight.

A tender kiss on his back and he felt as if he was melting under Daniel's expert hands. He felt his body opening up and knew, it would happen soon.

Daniel crawled up to him, whispered in his ear.

"You don't have to be afraid. You are so incredibly relaxed, I'm sure it will not hurt..."

Darren heard him open the box, and although he was hardly able to move, he turned around.

"Let me do this, please..."

They kneeled on the bed in front of each other, sitting on their heels, legs spread wide.

Daniel bit his lip, stroking Darren's arm when Darren took out the condom, placed it on the tip of Daniel's cock and rolled it down, massaging him, making him even harder. He opened the tube, squeezed some lube into Darren's hand and moaned when Darren spread it, rubbed it in.

They stared in each others eyes, their faces flushed, breathing fast. Daniel took Darren's face between his hands and kissed him deeply. 'Are we still only experimenting?' He thought. 'This is so much more...'

Darren rubbed the rest of the lube between his buttocks. He moaned into Daniel's mouth when he touched his opening, feeling his body and his mind getting impatient, yearning to feel Daniel inside.

"Please do it now... Take me.." He whispered in a husky voice.

Another kiss, a last reassuring look and he turned around, positioned himself on the pillows again, opening his legs.

Daniel did not let him wait. With a soft kiss on Darren's neck he pressed his cock between his buttocks.

"Relax... Relax, baby... I'm doing it now..."

Darren held his breath when he felt the growing pressure. The feeling was strange and he hugged the blanket tighter, tensed a bit when the pressure did not stop, but increased further.

At once Daniel stopped, pulled back a bit.

"Shhh... Don't hold your breath... "

Darren was so excited that he was hardly able to speak.

"S... Sorry..."

"No, it's okay... Everything is alright. Shhh..."

'Breathe in... Breathe out... Breathe in...' Darren told himself. '....Oh God, it's happening...' He felt Daniel push against his opening again. A feeling he could not define was growing, maybe it was a slight pain as Daniel was entering him now, but he did not feel it as pain.

"Dazza...?"

"Mm... Go on... Go on..."

He felt Daniel push his cock deeper, and he felt a sudden pride. 'I can take this... And we are really doing it...'

"Daniel, go on, I... It... feels... Oh God, it feels good..."

It was the truth. It was so intense, it was intimate, and how Daniel did it overwhelmed him in its tenderness and care.

Then he felt Daniel's body on his, so close that he knew, he was inside him.

He turned his head a bit and was greeted with a long kiss on his cheek.

"You are so brave..." whispered Daniel. "I hope it did not hurt... Or at least not too much..."

Darren took Daniel's hand that rested on his arm, kissed it. "I... can't say..." He laughed breathlessly. "I really don't know, it is so exciting, I don't feel any pain..."

It was all excitement until now, but as Daniel began to move, an incredible wave of pleasure rolled over him. He gasped. "Wo... Woah, Danny!"

Daniel smiled. "Mmm... Feel it?"

Darren buried his face in the cover. "Ooohhh..." He mumbled. "That was... So deep inside..."

Still smiling Daniel pulled back, let his cock glide deep inside again. "Like this...?"

The answer was a deep groan. "Aaahhh... How do you... Aaahhh... Yes...."

Daniel hugged him from behind. "That's what makes it so good..." He whispered. "But you can't describe it... You just have to feel it... And from now on, you'll know it... "

Darren laughed excited. "Yes... oh God, yes... And nobody knows that I know it..."

Daniel kissed the back of his neck. "Your secret, Darren... That's your little secret..."

"Our little secret, Daniel..."

"Yes, Dazza..."

Darren felt so safe under Daniel's body. And as if the feeling of having him inside wasn't enough, Daniel whispered, "What else can I do for you... What do you like in bed..."

Shuddering with lust Darren took his hand, led it to his right nipple. "Touch me here... Rub it... lightly... Ah.. Ah... Yes... Ooohhh..."

"Turn around, Darren... Turn around..."

Darren was hardly able to react when Daniel pulled back and rolled him onto his back.

His blue eyes were dilated and gleaming as in a fever when he let Daniel push his legs to his body, felt him sliding in again.

'I can look at him now,' he thought. 'I can...'

Daniel's mouth covered his lips in a sweet kiss when he pushed in all the way.

It was nearly too much. The incredible feelings deep inside. Daniel's eyes, his lips, his body. His fingertips, now softly rubbing both his nipples. His own cock, throbbing against Daniel's stomach.

He crossed his arms behind Daniel's neck when Daniel kissed him again.

Daniel's mouth wandered to his ear.

"Am I... kissing you... too much...?"

It was so hard to understand. It was hard for Darren to think at all.

"What.. What?"

"Kissing you... You have to tell me..."

Darren tried to look into Daniel's worried green eyes, but it was so hard to focus...

"What?"

Daniel pulled him even closer. Not much longer and he would come...

"We... Mmm... We wanted to... try this out... Right...? You... and me... doing... But..." A soft moan escaped his lips."But..."

Darren tried to figure out what Daniel meant. "Daniel, you are... I mean, you... Oh God, yes... You are.. You know... What you are doing... And you're asking me if... Mmm... Yeah... A bit deeper... Oh Danny... If you're kissing me.. too much...?"

Daniel forced himself to keep the slow pace. Not yet. He wanted to prolong this as much as possible...

"I meant... Kissing like this is such an... intimate thing... Don't know... if you want..."

Darren pulled his head down.

"I want to, Danny. I want to..."

They tried, but they could not hold it back any longer.

"Dazza, I..."

"Me too... Me... Oh... Oooohhh...."

They whimpered, cried, laughed when they came. Daniel first, with deep, long strokes, staying inside until Darren followed him.

Not able, not willing to let go, they held each other tight.

Daniel's face, covered with sweat, was pressed to Darren's neck.

"Give a word for it..." He whispered.

"Daniel... Daniel... Don't... make me guess all the time... Not good in the state I'm in..."

"Give a word for what we just did... When we did it... we both... did not say it..."

Darren shook his head, brushed back his sweaty hair.

"I don't know... This was much more...It would not fit to say you..." He breathed in deeply. He had said it carelessly surely a thousand times and more in his life. Why was it so hard now. "To say you... fucked me...would sound too... too..."

"Too cheap..." Daniel whispered.

Darren swallowed hard. "I know it sounds too sappy and everything but... What we did, what you did is you made love to me and it was incredible..."

"Oh Darren..."

"Danny, can we just shut up for a moment and you just hold me tight, please.. It is so hard to think and talk with you all around me and still inside me..."

"Do you want me to..."

"Oh nonono.... Just.. Stay this way, don't move..."

"You..."

"Shhh..."

"Daz..."

"Shhhhh...."

"'kay..."

Soft chuckles, deep sighs.

Pure bliss.


~Chapter Four~

They lay on the bed, Darren on his back, Daniel on his side, playing with Darren's chest hair.

Darren grinned. "So that is what you meant earlier."

"Huh?"

"When I said that nothing could feel better than you... sucking me... You wanted to say something. I asked you what, but you said: 'Maybe later.'"

Daniel tried to wind a bit of chest hair around his finger. "Mmm... Yes." He kissed Darren's nose. "But I did not want to force you into it." He chuckled. "And? Did it feel better?"

Darren took his face between his hands, kissed Daniel's lips. "Both felt fantastic. Incredible."

After quite a while he broke the kiss and they looked into each other's eyes. Then, without saying a word, Daniel slid his arms around him and they both just melted into the embrace, kissing again, deep and tender.

When they parted, they looked at each other again, slightly confused.

"Wow..." Darren whispered. Suddenly he did not know what to say. And suddenly words came to his mind he had to push aside gently... Had to remind himself that Daniel was his best friend... Nothing more... Nothing more...

But it just crashed to pieces when he heard Daniel's next words.

"So... Weren't we planning on going out tomorrow...?"

Darren felt as if someone had emptied a bucket of ice water over him. Reality hit him like a slap in the face. He tried to hide it, but it was too late.

Daniel's eyes looked worried. "What is it, Dazza..."

Darren found it hard to breathe. "I... Nothing..." 'Stupid, you are so stupid...' He told himself.

He stared at Daniel. "I think I'd... rather stay home tomorrow, I have... work to do..."

"Darren..."

"No, really... Just go... alone, okay?"

Daniel's eyes were wide now, showing pure fear.

"Talk to me, Darren, talk to me, something is wrong, I can feel it..."

"No, Dan, it is stupid, I... No... Forget it..."

Daniel shook his head. "Please, Darren, what did I do, what did I say..."

He yanked Darren in to his arms.

"We said it would not change our friendship.." He whispered. "But suddenly I fear to lose you as if you could just vanish from my arms right now... Please, Darren... Talk to me.."

He rubbed Darren's back to stop him from shivering. Heard his voice so small and faintly...

"I... couldn't stand it..." Darren whispered. "Isn't that stupid, I couldn't stand it..."

"What, Darren..."

"When you... Tomorrow, when you... Maybe you'll be lucky and find a new boyfriend tomorrow... I... could not... stand to see... or know you'd take him home... and..."

Daniel pulled him even closer, smiled, his lips touching Darren's ear.

"...and do the things I did with you...?"

Darren nodded.

Daniel rocked him softly. "Are you jealous, Darren...?"

Darren shook his head.

Breathed in deeply. Nodded slowly, ashamed.

Daniel let out a deep sigh.

"Look at me, Dazza... Hey, look at me..."

Darren looked up, tried to look away, looked at Daniel again.

"Danny, I am so stupid, I don't know what's wrong with me, I am sorry... I'm sure tomorrow it will be better, it's just..."

He stopped, confused by Daniel's sparkling, smiling eyes.

Daniel kissed the tip of Darren's nose.

"You think I could do that?"

Two kisses on Darren's eyes.

"Take another guy home...? After what we did tonight...?"

Darren's lips trembled.

"But we said, this is just experimenting, it won't change anything and so..."

A tender kiss on his lips.

Daniel caressed his cheek.

"But we both know it is not true, right?" He whispered.

Darren gave up fighting the feeling, gave up pretending. "Right..." He admitted softly.

He swallowed. "But... You said... we would go out tomorrow... So I thought..."

Daniel smiled. "I thought we could go out for dinner... Just us two..." He grinned, remembered what he had said earlier. "Hey, I won't find a nice red-haired guy anyway..."

He kissed Darren softly. "But I got one here with blue eyes..." He whispered. "I mean- if he wants me..."

"He wants you..." Darren whispered between two kisses. "He wants you very much..."

"But you wanted to look for a nice girl tomorrow..."

"You are nice, too..."

More kisses.

"But I am not a girl..."

"Ah, who cares..."

They pulled the cover over their heads.