Too Many Lonely Nights by Stina

The clock from some church tower stroke one.

Darren was asleep in his large hotel bed. The room was dark. Clothes, personal belongings were spread careless across the room, a little green light was gleaming, showing that his mobile phone was charged up again.

Another town, another airport, another venue, another hotel.

Darren sighed in his sleep, hugged the pillow tighter.

A soft knock on the door.

Silence.

Another knock, slightly louder.

Darren mumbled something, turned around in the bed.

Knock, knock.

He opened his eyes.

Sleepily.

Knock.

Slowly he got up, found his way to the door in the dark.

Leant his head against the door.

"Yeah..."

"It's me, Daniel..."

Darren rubbed his eyes, opened the door.

The light from the corridor blinded him.

He blinked at Daniel.

"Hmm...?"

Daniel's hair was tousled. He looked sleepy, too, was wearing a bath robe with the hotel logo on it.

"Can I come in?"

Darren sighed, tried to wake up fully. "What's the matter?"

"My room... It's so loud... There's a party next door... Can't sleep..."

Darren opened the door wider. "C'me in..."

He yawned. "Have you asked at the reception, maybe you can get another room..."

Daniel sat down in the small armchair at the window. He rubbed his arms as if he was freezing.

"I thought about this, too, but then I thought I could ask you if I could stay here for the night..."

Darren rubbed his eyes again. "Uh... Sorry... Of course... Sorry, I'm half asleep, haven't thought about this..."

He closed the door. Looked at the sofa.

Sighed.

It was full of clothes. He would have to put them all aside to make room for Daniel.

He was so tired.

He shuffled over to his bed, crawled under the covers again.

"You can sleep on the other side." He mumbled.

He felt the bed move, heard a faint "Thank you..."

Then he fell asleep again.

He did not know how much time had passed when he woke up again. Minutes? Hours?

Something was different. Unfamiliar.

With his eyes still closed he tried to find out.

Something was blowing softly against his neck. Again.

Tickled his skin.

Then he remembered. Daniel.

But...

He turned his head cautiously.

Could not help but smile.

Daniel was lying very close to him, his chin touching his shoulder. His nose was close to Darren's neck, and every breath was a soft breeze against Darren's neck.

Darren chuckled. He thought of pushing Daniel softly away but feared he would wake him up.

So he slid a bit more to the edge of the bed until there was a distance between them again.

He closed his eyes.

A soft sigh.

A rustle.

A warm body snuggling up to him. A face so close to his neck that soft lips were touching his skin now. A long arm moving over his chest.

Darren giggled. This was worse than before.

He put his fingers on Daniel's arm to push him back.

Felt Daniel's hand move on his chest.

He paused.

Daniel's body was so warm.

He took a deep breath. A slight trace of aftershave, cigarettes, shower gel.

The lips on his neck were moving as if Daniel was talking silently in his sleep.

Darren smiled. It was a pleasant, tingling feeling.

He sighed.

Tried to remember how long it had been that someone had warmed his body like this. That someone had shared his bed, had...

He tried to move his arm that was trapped between him and Daniel's body. Raised it slowly.

Where to put it now.

It was the easiest way.

Cautiously he slid it around Daniel's shoulder, and involuntarily he pulled him closer.

Looked at him in the dark.

Wondered if Daniel was feeling this loneliness, too, from time to time. If this was the reason that Daniel had rolled over to his side in his sleep.

Slowly he caressed his shoulder. Closed his eyes.

Took a deep breath.

It felt so good.

To hold someone.

To feel someone breathe beside him, to feel a warm body...

"Darren?"

His eyes sprang open and he looked straight into Daniel's large dark eyes.

"Danny..."

They looked at each other without moving.

"I'm sorry..." Darren whispered. "I woke up 'cause you... Your arm was across my chest and you were so close..."

Daniel swallowed hard. "Oh... I'm sorry..."

He turned his head slightly, looked at Darren's hand on his shoulder.

Took a deep breath, stretched in Darren's arm.

Snuggled up closer to him.

"Feeling lonely...?" He whispered.

Darren nodded slowly. "Yeah..."

"Me too..."

He stroked Darren's chest. "I woke up because it was so loud next room, and then suddenly I realised that I did not know anymore which city I was in..."

Darren sighed. Put his hand on Daniel's hand. "Sounds familiar to me..."

Daniel put his head on Darren's shoulder. "Can you... Just hold me for a while...?"

Darren slid both his arms around him. "Sure..."

For a while they laid silently in the dark.

Darren suddenly felt like being on an island. A warm, cosy little island in a world of loneliness.

He felt Daniel's heartbeat against his chest, his hands caressing his back.

And then he felt his lips. Felt them touch his neck softly. Once, like a slight brush.

Twice. Like a soft kiss.

A sweet, pleasant shiver ran up and down the back of his neck.

"Danny..." He whispered.

"Shhh..."

The warm lips sucked softly on his skin.

Tender hands caressed his face, his hair.

Darren closed his eyes. Pulled Daniel closer.

Daniel's lips were on his cheek now. His hands on the back of his head.

Darren turned his head. Brushed his lips over Daniel's mouth.

They opened their eyes and looked at each other.

"I really would like to give you a kiss..." Daniel whispered. "But I fear that tomorrow I don't dare to face you again..."

Darren shook his head. "Don't care about tomorrow. Tomorrow is far away."

He touched Daniel's lower lip with his fingertip.

"Sometimes, on tour, I feel so lonely I could cry. And if we both can forget this loneliness tonight... Then we should not be ashamed of it tomorrow..."

Daniel kissed his fingertip.

Their lips met.

It was a soft, tender kiss, full of comfort and gentleness. Tentatively at first, getting confident then until they opened their lips, deepened the kiss, let their tongues play and stroke.

When they broke the kiss, Darren buried his face at Daniel's neck, moaned softly. His hands wandered down his back.

Daniel shivered, stroked his hair.

"Maybe you should tell me now to go back to my room..." He whispered.

Darren felt a new shiver run down his neck, down his spine.

"Yes, maybe I should... Because..."

He laughed softly.

"You'll be shocked now..."

He turned slightly and let his groin touch Daniel's thigh.

Daniel chuckled, rubbed Darren's hard erection with his thigh.

"I'm not shocked..." He whispered.

Took Darren's hand and led it down his body.

Hesitated.

Darren put his hand lightly between Daniel's legs.

They both laughed breathlessly.

Darren breathed in deeply.

"Okay..." He touched Daniel's cheek with his fingertips. "I have to admit... Now I am nervous..."

Daniel kissed his ear, smiling. "Me too... Can we just... play and touch and kiss a bit, until we say 'stop'...?"

"But what..." Darren rubbed his groin at Daniel's thigh. "What if I say stop and..." He chuckled. "And my body won't listen and something..." He bit his lip to suppress a moan. "Something... embarrassing... happens..."

Daniel put his fingers behind the waistband of Darren's boxers, began to pull them down. "Then it happens... I mean..."

He took off his boxers, too. "If we go on like this, we will both come... That's for sure..."

Darren put his hands on Daniel's hips, pulled him close.

"It's okay for you?"

Their groins met and Darren hissed. "Oh God..."

Daniel nodded. He kissed Darren, harder, demanding. "I want this, Darren. You're so right. Don't care about tomorrow. The last months were so... stressful. And so lonely. I want to feel something tonight. I want to feel again that I am alive. I want to do something tonight I can remember. Something crazy, something with lust and tenderness and..." He took Darren's face between his hands. "I think it is good that it happens with you."

Darren's eyes were dark and sparkling. "You are right..."

With surprising strength Daniel pushed Darren on his back, straddled him. Took his hand, led it to his hard arousal.

"Please..." He whispered. "Make me come... Now..."

Darren touched him, wrapped his hand around the hard flesh. He shivered.

"Oh wow..."

He began to rub Daniel's erection slowly.

Daniel let out a soft moan. "Yes..."

He opened his legs wider. "Yes... Oh, great..."

Darren stared at him. We are crazy, he thought. But I don't care.

While he pleased Daniel with his right hand, he caressed his bare chest, his neck with the other.

"Come, Danny..." He whispered. "Come..."

Daniel threw his head back, laughed breathlessly. "God, Darren, feels so good... Don't stop..."

He hissed. "A bit harder... Yeah..."

His body stiffened. "Oh... Oh, now... Ah yes... Yes!!!"

Darren looked up to him, watched fascinated how Daniel enjoyed himself, how he gave in completely to his pleasure. Watched his face, the bliss and release when he spilled the hot liquid over Darren's stomach.

He reached out his hands, opened his arms, hugged Daniel who let out a deep sigh and bent forward, kissed Darren's lips.

"Oh Darren... This was the best thing that happened to me in... years..."

He kissed him again. "Thank you..."

Darren laughed. "No need to thank me..."

He looked down his body, looked at his own throbbing, aching erection.

"But you could do me a big favour..."

Daniel stared at him, his face flushed. Began to stroke Darren's arousal.

"We are crazy, right...?"

Darren nodded, bit his lip in delight. "Right."

Daniel let his hand trail over Darren's stomach. Spread his spilled liquids over Darren's erection.

Darren moaned. "Woah..."

Daniel was suddenly breathing faster.

"Stop me, Darren, if you don't want this... But I want to do something really crazy I always wanted to experience..."

He moved up Darren's body until he was straddling his groin. Lowered himself until his buttocks touched Darren's erection.

Darren's eyes, dilated by lust and pleasure, widened.

"What... Oh God, Danny..."

Daniel nodded slowly.

"I said, stop me..."

Darren felt the tip of his erection touch Daniel's tight opening.

He shivered. "I never..."

"Me neither..."

"It will hurt..."

Daniel closed his eyes. "I know... Don't care..."

He lowered his bottom, hissed. "Outch..."

Darren felt the tight muscle open a bit. He put his hands on Daniel's hips.

"Slowly, Danny..." He whispered. "Take your time..."

He caressed his skin. "Relax... Relax, Baby..."

He moved his hand up Daniel's chest, put it on his heart.

"Calm down..." He said softly. "We didn't plan this, don't hurry it..."

Daniel smiled with closed eyes. "Okay..."

They did not move for quite a while and then Darren felt Daniel's muscle relax. Cautiously he pushed his hips up a bit.

Daniel sighed, bent his head back, his mouth slightly open.

"Oh my God..."

Darren reached up, stroked his cheek gently. "Does it hurt...?"

Daniel took his hand, pressed it on his cheek. Looked down on Darren.

"A bit..." He whispered.

He bent down, kissed Darren's lips. "But it is so exciting..."

Darren put his feet flat on the bed, bending his knees. Slowly he pushed in deeper, hugging Daniel tightly.

"You feel... fantastic..." He whispered.

Daniel moved his hips slightly up and down, shivered. "Oh wow wow wow..."

Darren smiled. "I think you had a ... good idea... Doing this..."

Daniel laughed softly. Kissed him. "Isn't this a nice way to spend a lonely night..." He whispered.

"Yes... Yes, it is..."

"I mean... We don't have to do this every night, but if one of us feels lonely again, do you think..."

"Yes, Danny..."

Daniel rocked his hips now rhythmically against Darren's groin.

"It doesn't have to be THIS, maybe... only... hold each other tight... Oh Darren, this feels so good inside..."

Darren moaned, grabbed his buttocks.

"Danny, I'm coming..."

He let out a faint whimper. "This will be good... This will be so good, I'm feeling it..."

Daniel lifted himself up, sat back on his heels to let Darren thrust deeper inside of his trembling body. He closed his eyes, nodded. "Yes... Yes, this is good... Fantastic... Oh Darren, harder..."

He moved his body up and down faster, making Darren scream with lust.

"Oh my God..."

"Come..."

"Oh, I... Danny!!! Aaahhh!! Ahh..."

They collapsed together, shaking, trembling. Daniel rolled on his side, pulled Darren with him, pulled the cover tightly over them.

They kissed breathlessly.

Sighed contented.

Laughed, sighed again.

Daniel nodded slowly. "Yes."

Darren smiled. "Yes?"

"I think this was exactly what we needed tonight."

"Exactly."

Daniel stretched luxuriously. "How do you feel?"

Darren thought for a moment. "Happy. Very relaxed. Satisfied."

"Me too ... " Daniel placed a soft kiss on his lips. "Can I stay until the morning...?"

A tender smile. "Please... Stay..."

They fell asleep, Darren lying on his side, Daniel snuggled up to him from behind.

The next day was again a very stressful and hectic one, but Darren felt like a new man. From time to time he smiled, lost in thoughts, remembering the night before. And sometimes he caught a glimpse from Daniel, a wink and a grin.

And they both knew, if they ever needed comfort and tenderness late at night, they knew where to find it.