This Is Not Star Wars by Stina

"This is not Star Wars". Darren stared at the TV screen. "Definitely not." Daniel's eyes were wide, looking at the pictures, too. "Darren, you have to compare the covers with the numbers in the video store. How often do I have to say that. Last time you got home with Casablanca when you wanted to rent Indiana Jon.. Oh my God, WHAT IS THAT?"

Darren closed his eyes, opened them again. "Looks like a.. um.. porn movie..."

Daniel still held his empty beer glass in one hand, the bottle in the other, frozen in the movement. "Then where are the girls?"

Music with a pumping rhythm filled the room. Darren gulped. "Seems like this is a.. no-girls movie..." He blinked his eyes like he couldn't believe what he was seeing.

"I have to confess... I have never watched such a... Movie...."

Daniel shook his head. "Me neither... Uh..." He made a shocked noise.

Darren grabbed the remote control. "I'll turn it off..." But he didn't.

"Have you ever seen someone THAT big.. I mean with such a big..."

"No...."

Daniel frowned. "He seems to enjoy that. Man, that must hurt!!!"

Darren's eyes were wide like saucers. "I'm sure it hurts. He only pretends that he is having fun. He is an actor! Well, kind of... Huh!!! Have you seen THAT?"

Daniel could not tear away his eyes from the screen. "What the other guy is doing with his fingers? He is pushing his fingers inside that guy's... Woah, that must feel strange..."

Somehow Darren became embarrassed. He pressed the "Stop"-button, took out the cassette. "Lets see if the second one is right..." He changed the videos, sighed in relief when the music started. "Yep. That's 'The Empire Strikes Back'..."

A few beers later 'The Return of the Jedis' was flickering on the screen and Darren and Daniel were hanging around lazy and a little drunk on the sofa.

"Do you really think it hurts that much?" Darren suddenly asked.

Daniel looked at him in confusion. "What? Being hit by a light saber?"

"No.. The.. other movie."

Daniel took another deep gulp from his bottle. "Imagine it. It must hurt like hell!"

"Then.. Why are they doing it?"

Daniel gave him an amused look. "That really troubles you?"

Darren blushed. "It doesn't trouble me. Just interests me... Let's say, scientifically."

Daniel shrugged his shoulders. "I can imagine the part with the fingers can be... Well, at least, nice.. I once read that something inside you gets stimulated and that causes some nice feelings, but getting something THAT big like a... Nah, I would scream the house down. That's weird."

Darren opened another bottle of beer. "Have you ever tried that?"

Daniel nearly fell off the sofa. "WHAT? Let someone pinch his..."

"Naaaa... The thing with the fingers.. I mean... You could yourself..."

Daniel giggled. "No, never. Never even thought about it..."

Darren knew, he had drunk one beer too many. He caught himself staring at Daniel's hand. He had never noticed how long and slim his fingers were... So... sensitive...

And suddenly he saw an image right before his eyes- he saw himself lying on a bed and Daniel was slowly pushing one of his long, slim...

"Darren, what's wrong?"

"Eh, what?"

"Why are you staring at my hands all the time?"

"Ssssorry, nothing..."

"DARREN?!"

"What?"

"Tell me you do not think what I think you think!!!"

"I'm sorry, I just..."

"Darren!! Look somewhere else, you are making me nervous!!!"

The rest of the evening they sat on the sofa silently, watching the end of Darth Vader.

"Good night, Darren..."

"Good night, Daniel..."

They had a suite in the hotel with two sleeping rooms, so they headed off to their doors.

Daniel couldn't fall asleep. Darren's reaction puzzled him. Had he really thought Daniel would... No, that was crazy.

It wasn't quite the truth what Daniel had said. He had never tried to please himself that way, but he had thought about it.

He was alone. No one would know.

He licked his forefinger and his hand disappeared under the blanket.

He twitched his face. Strange feeling. Maybe..

"Huuuh!!" A loud man escaped his lips.

That was... Not bad... Mmmm, one more time...

"Oh my God...."

Maybe he would have the courage to tell Darren that it wasn't so bad... He got up, washed his fingers.

Darren lay awake, staring into the darkness. He was ashamed that Daniel had obviously read his thoughts... He was afraid to face him in the morning...

There was that image again... Daniel, moaning in his ear while...

Darren bit his lips. His fingers found their way to his groin... Stroking his hard erection... He took a bottle of moisturiser from the nightstand.

He intended to do it like every time when he felt the need to, but then he decided to shyly press one finger to his opening...

"Mmmmm... Mmmmm!!!!"

Oh, it felt good... Daniel didn't know what he was missing...

"Daniel..." He whispered.

"Darren..."

Darren got petrified. That must have been a dream. He could not have heard Daniel's voice. He didn't dare to turn around, and then he heard soft footsteps across his room and someone lying down behind him.

"Shhhh... Don't be afraid..."

"Dan..."

"You tried it out, too, didn't you..? Why did you call my name?"

He snuggled up to Darren's back.

"Hm?"

"I... wished it was you... Dan, I'm so sorry...."

"Don't be sorry.... Do you still want me to do it...?"

"Yeah..."

Daniel brushed Darren's lips with his fingers. "Come on.. Make them wet..."

Darren took Daniel's hand and took his forefinger into his mouth.

It tasted of cigarettes and soap and of... Daniel...

He sucked it and Daniel pushed his middle finger inside his mouth, too. "It's amazing with two fingers, you'll see..." He whispered.

He pushed Darren's upper leg a bit forward, slid one arm under his neck..

"Relax...."

Softly he began to massage Darren's opening.

"You're so tense..." He whispered. "Let yourself go..."

Darren swallowed hard.

"Danny..."

Daniel bent forward, whispered in Darren's ear.

"I won't tell anybody. Ever... I promise..."

He took his time. Massaged him with slow, circulating moves until finally he felt the muscle open.

"Give me the moisturiser... " He whispered.

Darren shivered. Now he was slick and soft, and he felt Daniel's finger glide inside. It did feel surprisingly natural, and so exciting....

"Am I hurting you...?" Daniel's lips were now so close at his ear that he felt them tickle his skin.

"No... No..."

Darren turned his head, and Daniel's lips were brushing his cheek.

He whimpered softly when Daniel pushed the next finger in.

"Yes... Oh, Danny..."

He shivered when the fingers touched the very point.

"Yes..."

"Here...?"

"Oh yes... Oh Danny... "

Softly Daniel's fingers slipped out, took Darren's hand, led it to his groin. "Touch yourself, Dazza..." He whispered. His slick hand entwined with Darren's, took his cock, rubbed it.

Darren moaned when he felt Daniel's fingers touch his cock. For a while they stroked him slowly with both their hands, then Daniel's hand slid back to his hot opening, pushed in, massaged his insides again.

Darren's head was spinning. "More..." was his only thought. "More..."

He felt Daniel's hard cock pressed against his thigh. His heart was racing when he took the moisturiser, poured it into his hand, moved his hand back to Daniel's cock.

Heard Daniel gasp when he touched him, stroked him in rhythm to Daniel's fingers inside of him.

He searched for words. Afraid to shock Daniel. Desperately yearning to have him. Desperately wanting to know how it would feel... To have Daniel's slick, hard cock pressed against his hole... To feel him gliding inside...

Daniel's lips touched the back of his neck, and this time it was not only a soothing caress. It was a soft kiss.

"I'll be very careful..." He whispered. "Tell me when I am hurting you. Tell me to stop when you feel uncomfortable...."

Darren kissed Daniel's arm that was lying under his head.

"Danny..."

He reached behind, took Daniel's cock in his hand, led it between his buttocks.

"Take it slow..." He whispered.

It was incredible. The increasing pressure, the sensation of the velvet hard cock that pushed inside slowly.

When Daniel pushed deeper, instinctively Darren pulled away, and a faint sound of irritation escaped his lips.

Daniel stopped, caressed his hip.

"Don't fight it..." He whispered. "Or does it hurt..."

Darren breathed in deeply. "No... It feels so strange... to get something pushed in... so deep..."

Daniel bent over his cheek, turned his face a bit with his hand until he could kiss Darren's lips.

He saw his eyes, dark with desire, large with a puzzled expression.

"Shhh... Do you want me to stop... I'll do it... You only have to say it..."

"No... Don't stop... Oh Danny... Danny, what are we doing..."

He pressed his hand tightly when Daniel entered him completely with one deep, slow move.

Hugging each other tight, they lay still, listening to each other, listening to their bodies.

Darren prepared himself for at least a bit of pain and uneasiness when Daniel began to move. He had expected that it would hurt after a while, but he was determined not to stop Daniel, now he wanted to experience it to the end. He closed his eyes, held his breath, bit his lip.

His eyes flew open and he heard a deep, strange moan. It took him a while and a second moan to realise that it came from him. Another deep, shuddering groan.

He pressed his lips to Daniel's arm, began to suck the skin, shivering uncontrollably. Felt Daniel's mouth on his neck.

Heard someone whisper incoherent words he could not understand. Heard Daniel answer and knew, it had been him again.

He moved in rhythm with Daniel. Felt his hand stroke his hardness. He tried to speak, it was so difficult...

"Danny..."

"Good, Baby...?"

"Danny..."

"Oh Dazza..."

"Danny..."

"I know..."

He cried when he came. Tears were streaming down his face and he was sobbing silently. Daniel's hands, his lips were on his face, turning him around, hugging him, rocking him softly.

They kissed. It was meant to be a soft kiss to seal their experience, but both their lips opened and they caressed their faces with their hands, kissing deeply.

"Like lovers. We are kissing like lovers do..." shot through Daniel's mind. "Oh my God, what are we now... I am kissing my best friend, and we made love... And it was good... So good..."

Later they still lay together silently.

"Danny.."

"Yes..."

"Are you okay?"

"I... think so... You?"

"Danny, it was so... I can't describe it... Like... Electricity... Inside..."

Daniel brought his mouth to Darren's ear. It would sound... clichéd, but he had to let Darren know.

"Dazza..." He whispered. "I came like never before in my life... It felt so... good... And so... tight... Drove me crazy... You drove me crazy... Your moans and your... Oh Dazza..."

They kissed again. Could not get enough of each other.

Late at night they finally fell asleep.

Darren awoke to the sound of birds singing and the first rays of light tickling his nose. He kept his eyes closed, smiling to himself.

It was all there again, the memory of what they did at night. Felt Daniel's warm, slim body pressed against him...He could still feel him gliding so deep inside, causing this satisfying pleasure... He wondered if Daniel would let him return this favour tonight...

He took a deep breath. It was very silent in the room.

"Danny..." He whispered, turning his head. "Danny, wake up..."

He opened his eyes to be sure that Daniel would be the first he would see now.

He was alone. The bed was empty.

A painful stitch of disappointment shot through his heart. Could it be that Daniel woke up in the middle of the night and had decided to sleep in his own room?

"Danny?" His voice sounded lost. And already scared.

That what he feared deep inside had come true.

Daniel's room was empty. The bathroom was empty.

He showered quickly, dressed and took the elevator to the breakfast room.

He saw them at one of the tables. Lee, Ben and... Daniel.

He came closer, and Daniel looked up. Looked at him. Looked down again.

Darren stopped in the middle of the room. He must have seen him. It was impossible that Daniel had not seen him.

Very slowly he came nearer.

"Good morning..."

Lee and Ben looked up, grinned. "Morning, Daz!"

No reaction from Daniel who was staring into his coffee mug.

Darren felt as if someone had grabbed his throat and began to squeeze now.

"Good morning Daniel..."

Daniel stirred his coffee without looking up. "Morning."

Ben looked surprised from one of them to another. "Eh, anything wrong?"

Darren waited desperately for a reaction from Daniel. Nothing happened.

"No... Everything's... alright..." he managed to say.

He bit his lip.

Don't do this to me, Dan. Please. Oh Danny...

He felt tears dwelling up his eyes.

Oh God, no, I must not cry now. What will they think.

He lowered his head so that no one was able to see his eyes.

Not really knowing what he was doing he reached for the salt. Touched the shaker the same moment as Daniel did. Daniel pulled his fingers back as if it was blazing hot. It toppled over and the salt poured all over the table.

Ben looked helpless from one to another.

"Eh... Hehe... Doesn't this bring... good Luck? To pour salt?" He tried to joke.

Tears were falling from Darren's face onto the white table cloth.

"Obviously not for me..." He whispered. Pushed his chair back and ran out of the room.

It was very silent at the table now.

"What's the matter..." Ben said slowly. "What happened."

Daniel shook his head, wiped a tear from his face with his fist.

"Nothing."

"Yeah, sure, I can see. Nothing."

Lee who was sitting beside Daniel, put one arm around his shoulder.

"Daniel, we are your friends. We can't stand to see you both like this. We want to help you, honestly."

Daniel shook his head again.

"No, we promised each other we would not... Would not tell... I don't want to talk about it."

Ben sighed.

"Danny..."

Daniel wiped his face again.

"We should not have done it..." He whispered.

"What..."

No answer.

Ben put his hand under Daniel's chin, forced him to look into his eyes.

"You fought?"

"No..."

"Fucked?"

"Ben!"

Lee looked at Ben quite shocked but grew silent when there obviously was no shocked reaction from Daniel, just a twitch. There was no real reaction at all, and this said it all.

Daniel breathed in deeply.

"It... just happened... We were... fooling around and then... Oh God..."

Ben looked at him calmly. "And obviously it was horrible. Disgusting."

Daniel's eyes grew wide.

"No!! No, it was..." Unconsciously he smiled at the memory.

"It was... Very... sweet and... good..."

Ben's eyes narrowed. "And why are you treating Darren like shit then?"

Daniel swallowed hard. "I was scared what would be today... What you would think if you found out... Thought it would be better..."

"...better to hurt Darren..." finished Lee the sentence sarcastically.

Ben shook his head. "If I imagined it was me- let's say if it was to happen to me and Lee, and on the next day Lee would act like you..."

Daniel looked insecure from one to the other. "This was not... very nice of me, right?"

Ben sighed. "Go and look for Darren. And then talk. We'll excuse you to Leo."

Daniel's eyes were sparkling when he got up.

"Thank you..."

He left and Lee grinned at Ben.

"What was this, 'If it was to happen to me and Lee'..."

Ben blushed. "I... It was just an example, I... Sorry, I did not mean..."

He silenced when he felt Lee's hand on his.

"Shh..."

Ben looked at Lee's fingers that softly rubbed his palm.

"Lee..."

"Feels nice...?"

"Mmm... Yes... Oh, Lee..."

"Will you promise me not to ignore me later, when I go upstairs with you now?"

"I promise..."

"Do you want to go with me...?"

"I... Want... Yes, I want..."

"Then come..."

Impatiently Daniel pushed the button for the elevator again and again. Had it ever been this slow?

Finally he ran down the floor, opened the door.

"Darren? Darren, I am sorry, I..."

He saw at once that Darren's suitcase was gone. He must have packed in a real hurry, had left some things lying on the floor, had left his toothbrush, his shaver.

He must have taken the other elevator down the same moment Daniel was using the first one.

This time he ran down the staircase, ran over to the reception.

"Mr. Hayes? Darren Hayes?"

The young woman checked her computer.

"Mr. Hayes... He has checked out... A few minutes ago."

Looked up and smiled.

"Can I do anything for you, Sir?"

He turned around, ran to the front door.

Darren was lost in his thoughts when he walked down the street.

Away from here. I have to get away. I will never be able to look Daniel in the eye again.

I made a fool out of myself.

He did not see the car, did not hear the horn when he stepped onto the street.

Suddenly felt two strong hands which grabbed his shoulders, jerk him back. He tumbled, fell, heard the driver yell a stream of obscenities.

"Darren... Oh God, Darren..."

He looked up to the man that was kneeling beside him.

"Daniel..."

He had Daniel lead him back to the hotel, feeling like a sleepwalker.

Sat down on the bed, his head hanging down.

"I am sorry, Daniel..." He whispered. "For causing you so much trouble... And I am sorry for what I did last night..."

Daniel kneeled down in front of him, holding both his hands.

"For what YOU did?"

Tears were streaming down Darren's face.

"Surely it was my fault... I am so sorry I ruined our friendship."

In an incredible tender gesture Daniel lifted one of Darren's hands and placed a soft kiss on it.

"I am sorry, Darren. It was me who ruined everything. I was a coward."

His hands moved up Darren's arms to his shoulders, began to massage them.

"The last night was perhaps the most wonderful night in my whole life. I don't know how to say..."

He took Darren's face between his hands, raised from his knees, bend forward and kissed him softly.

"...That I am sorry..." Another kiss. "Please, forgive me..."

Slowly he pushed Darren back onto the bed, straddled him.

"Please..."

Darren looked at him with large deep blue eyes. Touched Daniel's cheek.

"You don't regret it?"

Daniel smiled.

"Not a single touch..." Their lips met. "Not a single kiss... Not a single... You know..."

Darren sighed deeply, wrapped his arms around Daniel.

"So we are still friends?"

"Yes, we are..."

"Danny, what else are we?"

Daniel buried his face on the soft skin of Darren's neck.

"I don't know... I only know, I don't want it to end... What happened last night..."

Darren's hands stroked his back.

"You know... When I woke up this morning, I hoped we could... do it again..."

Daniel moaned regretfully.

"And I spoilt it... Oh Dazza..."

Smiling he began to unbutton Darren's shirt.

"Maybe I can make it good again..."

"But we have to..."

"No, we don't have to. Ben and Lee will excuse us."

It was incredible. Not in the dark of the night, but in the bright daylight to undress each other, to touch and caress, kiss and explore. They rolled over the bed, grinding their hard cocks against each other.

"How do you want to do it..." panted Daniel.

Darren bent his head back, enjoying Daniel's wet kisses on his neck.

"I want to be inside you...."

"How about..."

"Say it..."

"You know... Like in this movie... Me sitting on your lap... You holding my hips... Pushing up against me..."

"Mmmm.... Yeah..."

"Give me the moisturiser..."

Breathing heavily Daniel lubed up Darren's cock.

Darren moaned. "Oh, Danny, come, or..."

Daniel straddled him, lowered his hips slowly. Put one hand behind him, led Darren's cock to his opening. Darren raised his hips, pushed in a bit.

Daniel bit his lip, his face twitched.

"Ahhh..."

Darren stroked his chest.

"Does it hurt?"

Daniel held his breath, closed his eyes, pushed down a bit more.

"Ah..." He grabbed Darren's hands, pressed them to his chest.

"Danny... Danny, does it hurt..."

Daniel nodded, raised his hips, laughed.

"Oh, shit, I obviously am completely untalented here..."

Darren giggled. "No, you are not... Maybe this position is for... em... more advanced ones..."

He pulled Daniel into his arms.

"We're pushing this too fast..."

"But I want you... I want you, Darren..."

"Shhh... We'll do it like last night... Or... You on your back, me between your legs..."

"Oh, this sounds good..."

"Wanna try?"

"Oh yes..."

"Okay, turn over...."

Darren was lying on top of Daniel, kissing him.

"It was too fast..." He whispered. "Remember how much time you spent pleasing me with your fingers..."

Slowly he moved down Daniel's body, spread his legs.

"Lift them a bit.... Mmm... Yeah..."

He did not feel ashamed to lie between Daniel's legs, kissing the inside of his thighs, placing the tip of his finger at his opening, pushing in carefully, causing a pleasant shudder.

A sudden wave of tenderness rushed over him and he bent forward, removed his finger and pressed his lips to the tight hole.

Daniel gasped with surprise and delight.

"Woah, Dazza..." He breathed in sharply when he felt Darren's tongue enter him, felt his hands on his cock.

"Oh my God... Darren..."

His head tilted from one side to the other. A wave of pleasure crushed over him, his head began to spin.

Suddenly Darren's lips were on his neck, suddenly he felt his stiff cock press to his opening. He wrapped his legs around Darren's waist, pulling him close, pulling him in.

The pressure felt good, the whole act of Darren pushing in felt amazing.

"Danny, does it hurt..."

"Ah... Aaahhh... Not at all... It is so... Wow...Oh, go on..."

Darren caressed his forehead.

"Look at me..."

And Daniel realised he had still his eyes shut, completely swept away.

Slowly he opened them, smiled when he saw Darren's sparkling eyes.

"Feeling good?"

"Mmmmm... Can you... You know...Deeper...?"

A soft kiss.

"Oh... Ohhh... Yeah..."

He pulled Darren's head close to his lips, whispering into his ear.

"How's it for you?"

Darren let out a deep, purring sound.

"This good?"

"Sooo good..."

Darren began to move slowly, causing soft moans from Daniel.

"Good?"

"Oh, yes, go on..."

"Like this...?"

"Mmmm...."

"Oh Danny..."

"You're so tender, Dazza... Just do it like this..."

The thrilling friction on his cock from both their bodies was too much.

"Dazza... I'm... coming..."

And when Darren whispered into his ear "I'm telling you a secret now, I never came so good like I did last night having your dick inside my ass...", he simply exploded.

A few more deep shoves and Darren followed him, moaning loudly.

Slowly calming down they lay on the bed in each others arms.

"Darren... Oh my God... I never heard you say something like this... 'Your dick inside my ass'..."

Darren chuckled. "Until now the opportunities were very rare, don't you agree?"

He sighed.

"Danny..."

Daniel turned on his side, facing him.

"Yes..."

"Have to tell you something, but... Mm.. I don't know..."

"Say it, Dazza."

"When we began...This... last night, it was... for fun... a bit of experimenting..."

He silenced.

Daniel's fingertips caressed Darren's cheek.

"It is more now, am I right...?"

Darren nodded.

They just looked at each other.

"Danny, I fear that... I am beginning to fall in love with you..." Darren whispered.

Daniel swallowed hard.

"I hoped so much that you would say something like this..." He whispered back.

His mouth brushed Darren's full lips.

"I think I... already love you, Darren... I knew it the moment when you ran away and when I saw you, and the car..."

Suddenly a tear rolled down his cheek.

"I thought, oh God, no, I don't want to lose him... I love him..."

"Oh Danny..."

Darren bent forward, kissed the tear away.

The unpleasant sound of the phone ringing tore them from their own sweet world.

Rolling his eyes, Daniel lifted the speaker.

"Yes?"

He held the speaker an arm length away so that Darren could hear Leo's shrill voice complaining where they were.

"Didn't Lee or Ben call you? We... em, feel sick. Will, eh, rest here the whole day."

Quickly he hung up, grinned.

Then he dialled the number of Ben's room.

It took a while before the call was answered.

"Ben? Didn't you say you wanted to call Leo and... Ben? Everything alright? You sound so... Yes, I have Darren here, we are fine... Ben? Are you not alone?"

He looked to Darren, raised his eyebrows.

He listened. Then he smiled broadly. His voice softened.

"Best if he lies on the side. You behind. Take it slow."

He listened again.

"Body lotion will do. Or moisturiser. And, Ben, really... Very, very slow..."

He smiled.

"Yes. Ditto. Bye..."

Darren grinned.

"Noooo..."

"Oh yes..."

"Lee?"

"Oh yes..."

They chuckled.

"Maybe it is infectious..."

Daniel stretched out his arms.

"Come here, Baby..."

And with soft kisses he pulled the blanket over their heads.